When I think of sharing my thoughts or new found information on a blog, I often feel the need to blog frequently. I have to believe anyone that blogs does so in an effort to find kindred spirits or others who may follow the blog and offer the writer an entirely different perspective. I often fear the lack of frequent postings may send a message of lethargy and followers may become dis-interested.
My struggle with frequent blogging for the sake of blogging is after experiencing the loss of our 22 year old son, words became almost holy. In choosing a card to send someone, I almost have to completely re-write the card deleting certain words and adding others. The intention and clarity is imperative. My thought is, this could possibly be the last card the receiver reads or it could be the last card I send. Either way, I want it to be as right as it can be. No question of what message I want to relay.
I feel the same about blogging. While during the down times, messages, information, ideas and my thoughts are constantly racing through my mind. Yet, while I am emotionally moved to blog them, I have not been physically moved to do so. When I find myself at the keyboard, the passion pouring out upon the screen, then and only then do I feel the intention and clarity will meet my personal standards.
This may explain the long periods of time between posts. I do have a few things I want to share today. I saw this verse on a garden stone this week, “Anyone who plants a garden has hope for the future.” I thought how simple yet profound. My husband and I have planted gardens for thirty years. It was always just the season for planting to me. Winter has moved on, the sun is warming and birds are gathering nesting material. It’s time to prepare the ground. I was only in the moment. I was, as many spiritual teachers are touting lately, in the now. For the garden, the now was not the mission. Sure without the preparing of the ground and planting of the seed there would be no harvest. I had completely ignored my hope. If when I planted those seeds or pepper plants I knew without a shadow of a doubt I would not harvest a single vegetable there is no way I would have not bothered wasting my time.
It was the “unseen” hope. It was there all along. It was always there, every season. I never contemplated it. Never considered it, never uttered the words, “I hope we get peppers.” It was the activity of planting the garden that already demonstrated the hope and future.
I share this because one of the verses in the Bible that has forever been imprinted on my soul is, “and God placed man in a garden.” I have often asked myself during my times of reflection, “Are we supposed to travel away from our birthplace?” If God, who placed man in a garden, is it our right to move to a new garden, or are we to work the ground where we are? It is one of the questions of life which I have struggled with for years.
Many spiritual teachers of our time are advising us there are no coincidences. There is a reason and purpose behind everything. Many go as far as to say they do not believe in luck but purpose. I can quote many verses in the Bible that refer to bad luck. If there is bad luck, should there not then be good luck? Why did the translators use the word luck instead of purpose?
I cannot describe to you the shock I felt while going through personal papers of my 22 year old son who passed through a motorcycle accident, when I found his writings from scripture. The first page and the first verse of several pages of scripture was, “And God placed man in a garden.”
I remain puzzled. I want to share what I have come to understand for myself. God placed man in a garden. It’s okay to spread your wings. It was not about the placement. It was about the “unseen hope”.
By the mere activity of placing man in the garden, God foresaw a future. We aren’t told he said, “I hope I get people”, by the mere placement of man in the Garden, God’s hope for the future had already been demonstrated.
This has been a monumental moment of awakening for me on a spiritual level. I have been tormented for years over that verse. “And God placed man in a garden.” Do you realize how many questions you can dream up over seven simple words in an attempt to make sure you are on the path and fulfilling the journey you have been born to fulfill?
Then for me to find this particular verse in my son’s personal things did nothing more than increase my quest for answers.
I now find myself double-checking my activities. Is this “unseen hope” being demonstrated in the smallest of my activities and I am not even aware of it? The possibility is highly likely! A living hope within each and every one of us that we are not even conscious of at the time.
I am asking myself if there is anything that I do that does not have an “unseen” attachment to the future and is it possible for me to know that future. I also find in scripture that God knows, “the end from the beginning.” There you have it, the demonstration of placing/planting; the unseen hope and the known future.
Have you ever experienced that sense of well-being when others around you are cautious or fearful? The feeling deep, deep within you of “unseen knowing” that your hope will be fulfilled.
The “I know, that I know, that I know feeling.
I know this, I am not alone. In the deepest part of my soul, where I search for answers, who I share only with my soul, I am not alone. Wisdom is there. When the day and time is right, when the season for harvest comes, those questions that have been planted, the answers come from the “unseen hope”.
Never stop seeking. Never stop asking. Your harvest is on its way.
(Yes, these photos are from our harvest in our backyard.)